#esp w that curly ass hair

[byvishanti]

asian rpc content creators hear hear: sho kiyohara (japanese descent) is a very good actor whose content is extremely scarce across the tumblr, someone more talented than I please fix this.

[andromeddog]

Hi! Thank you for responding to my previous ask about helmets during wwi. I was also just wondering if u have any tips for drawing hair? this is for working on art in general and not a project. i have tried to use references and sketches a bunch, have practiced a ton, but it is still difficult. i was just wondering if u have any tips for drawing hair, esp male hair? thank you!!

oh wow anon hi again, coming in hot w an interesting question bc i genuinely don’t think ive ever consciously considered or examined the way to draw hair/the way i draw hair…. (apologies in advance this got really long)

ig first of all when u mention “male hair” u mean short hair? given the men i draw r p much all historical military dudes they tend to have short short hair so im going to assume u mean that (bc i know men w very luscious locks.) drawing it is something that took me a while to get used to…… when i was into golden kamuy my fave had a buzzcut and i was struggling to find someway to showcase that without it looking like a helmet (i started to figure it out towards the end) i think the big balance there is trying to manage level of detail. w some styles u rly dont need much (buzzcut is mostly about hairline and shape of the head, i break up the smooth silhouette by adding a few lines to suggest that it’s fuzzy or spikey) and others require way more attention (wavy/curly hair comes in a variety of shapes so figuring out the specific curl pattern ur going for is crucial, fine line between showing that accurately and just making a bunch of visual noise)

(also also this is just a fact of the media im into and to b completely honest w myself and you - we’re talking mostly white dudes here in this specific post, this is not a catch all for any hair type but esp more curly/coiled hair textures. i would recommend seeking out artists of color who have more experience w that bc i do b drawing a lot of white guys! and they are not the only type of guy!)

genuinely hair can feel like more of an obstacle for me, slowing down the process for what i would rather be drawing (uniforms) so im always stoked when i can just draw a helmet (sometimes, as previously established helmets r also my mortal enemy). often times ill start with the face but skip everything above the forehead until the very end of the line art, which leaves behind a very silly looking half decapitated soldier (there’s no tip here, just a weird quirk in how i go through a piece lolll) hair on its own is usually delicate and ive never once in my life been able to render something delicately, so thank god for gross war dudes who’s hair is messy enough for my style to finally make sense

IN GENERAL…..watch out when doing the lines, you don’t need to include EVERY single hair or EVERY single lock, blank space can imply they’re there and trying to capture every single centimeter of hair can be too much in the finished product. this is something i suffer from and have talked a bit about BUT it especially rears its head (lol) when drawing hair. i just get too lost in details and then i zoom out and have an insanely dense area of detail right on top of the head that distracts from everything else below it (aka basically all the stuff i WANT to showcase). the eye will automatically b drawn to that spot and no matter how nice the rest of the drawing is ppl will b more focused on whatever the fuck i did w the hair… being frivolous w lines in general can look good when zoomed in but when zoomed out can just make the whole piece…… busy

idk if i have “tips” so much as kind of a reference for how i would go about drawing hair…. here r some examples of hair i’ve drawn that i think dont suck complete ass with a wee bit of analysis. u can tell my absolute fav thing to do is put a lot of detail right where the hair meets the forehead- idk why i just think it makes that intersection more visually appealing.

when im beginning to draw hair i start w the head shape and where approximately the hairline is. then i kind of block off the general shape of the hair on top of that- getting an accurate idea of the boundaries and being able to fill in the details within that space. i try to identify the big “chunks” of hair, the major shapes/flow within the entire shape itself. longer/thicker lines segment those, and then i can fill in that space w shorter/lighter lines to show more detail (if im using a brush w line weight, if im doing mono line i feel my style skews more simple to make up for the lack of line weight)

the next step is a slightly more cleaned up version, getting a better idea of the silhouette and general hair direction. then its lines! and i spend 3 million years destroying my wrist and trying to make sense of earlier sketches…. esp w curly hair oh my god. truthfully i’m still trying to find a balance between “too much” and “not enough” when it comes to curls. again, i have a tendency to go overboard with detail!

also this is a personal plea, but if that hairline is receding, PLEASE for the love of god make sure to include that hairline receding. the hairline is one of those little things that can really help capture likeness; getting it wrong will result in a certain “off-ness” that can make u confused or frustrated as to why this guy doesn’t look quite right. u can also get one of those weird style conflicts where ppl who usually draw younger “””attractive””” men try to draw an older one and it’s very clear they r unwilling to do anything to make the older man look another other than like, 25. (or, from their perspective, unattractive) (i could get up on my soapbox about ppl’s unwillingness to even consider drawing features that aren’t like iphone face hot but that’s my hot take and no one asked) one thing i personally strive for in my work is an accurate depiction, or as close as i can manage w my skills being where they are, so i push that hairline back and i do it will all the love in my heart

ALL OF THIS TO SAY…… idk. this is just my general process, what i’ve been doing and what works for me. maybe it doesn’t make sense or won’t work for you. i will b the first to admit hair is not my strongest skill! i will also b the first to admit my work in general is far from perfect, i have a lot to learn in p much any and all conceivable ways!! but i hope this small novel helped even a little???? anyway have a great day anon mwah mwah mwah 💕✨🦆

[bloodymiso]

Hi! Can I req a matchup for starwars? I'm transfem! I don't care for the gender, just whoever fits 💚 I'm abt to be 16 in like . 3 weeks.. you can give me adult characters though!! I'll make a self insert 🫣

I'm 5'8" and have curly DARK brown hair that's chin-length? 'Amber' eyes, square face and freckles. I'm tan and covered in scars from random things. I'm OCD and autistic, I love horror a whole lot! I like hiking, baking, scavenging and candlemaking! I'm hyperfem and wear a lot of pink and girly things.. my love language is gift giving and physical touch. I'm pretty reckless and just kinda do whatever (cringe) but overall super excitable?? Super talkative and emotional. I hoard shiny things and sleep so so much, I also read a lot?? I DUNNO!! I have a thick country accent and grew up on a farm so I love livestock so much... horsies<33 okay that's all I can think of ehhrhe

i ship you with

tech!!(tbb)

tech is my babygirl i love him sm. dw pookie im a minor too💔

you two would LOVE scavenging together. you would be running around and pointing at random plants that piqued your interest while tech, finally taking a break from his datapad explained their different characteristics and long ass scientific names. he likes talking about all the shiny thingies you collect

t. “oh, that? well thats a—“ r. “no not that one you explained it already” t. “this one’s a—“ r. “done with that.”

idk i guess you two met through wrecker?? he sso silly ygs would totally be friends💯💯he would def scold you for like 20 mins after doing something “wreckless” but its okay he labs you<3

you were the sunflower that somehow fell into his life. im a proud autistic tech headcanoner along w my pookiebear autistic frennies, ygs are literally THE chaos duo.

omg omg ygs would have these dates where like uh you would just like go around pabu for 45 minutes separately then come back w gifts for eachother and have a picnic!!!tech loves giving you lil flowers(you do too) he would take a little while when it comes to physical touch..esp cuddling but its okay he’ll warm up at some point

[cheerioskid]

i'm so sorry you got that last ask! i've been learning how to draw different hair types for a while now and you're totally right, they're going to look different, that's the POINT. it's like if someone said that drawing a character with straight hair was lazy and disappointing because there wasn't as much detail as a curly haired character. you did a wonderful job in the first place and you were very kind and open with your response to that person, so double kudos to you.

thank you for the kind words!! also no need to apologize it's okay! i understand it's important if you're going to draw different types of textured hair, esp black hair styles, that there's certain do's and don'ts to be aware of so im very appreciative of the ppl willing to reach out w critiques and helpful advice !!

i think that bc the mcyt sphere is so white dominated (i say this as a mostly white person btw let me make that clear, so please take what im saying w a grain of salt & i hope to not speak over anyone) that these types of conversations don't seem to come up a lot so i'm glad this topic was brought up! i understand some ppl draw purely for fun and don't place importance on constantly improving but it shouldn't be a big ask to diversify your work and do it correctly!! (talking to myself and others here)

so again, please reach out to me if there's something i'm doing that you think i can improve on! (however if you are going to critique something: not asking for experts on anything, but please don't start speaking out of your ass to feel self righteous in "calling someone out" for doing something wrong, be so fr (this goes for anything btw))

[kouhaiofcolor]

2020's finally over. Can we not go into 2021 pacifying texturism w "It's just hair" tho?

It was "just hair" until Black Women started exercising the freedom to discover the unique needs & maintenance beneficial to our hair. Then as soon as non black women got wind of it & the nerve to lurk on platforms the natural hair community was uprising thru, nowadays you've got all these non black women bandwagoning & hashtagging literally everything under the sun w/ this fake ass inclusiveness, advocacy, relatability & support for textured hair. Like all women have suffered oppression around wearing their real hair 😒. Like all races of women have been socially targeted in blatant discriminations against their hair texture, complexion, & how acceptable they are or are not together. I hate the "All Hair (Matters/Is Beautiful/Is 'Good Hair')" clout bc it talks over & totally overwrites the foundational issue around hair & toxic femininity that, at its misogynoir core, has always been that textured hair is unprofessional, unkempt, unmanageable, & ugly. Colorism also erases the initial creators of the movement — which were Monoracial Brown & Dark Skinned Black Women; put some respek onnat, period. Straight hair is not oppressed; wavy hair is not oppressed; all hair is not oppressed. Black hair is. This "all hair is good hair" bullshit is so monotonous & inconsiderate bc its almost like a passive aggressive refusal to acknowledge what antiblackness imposed on Black Women alone. None of you non black know what it's like in depth to be the descendants of a race of ppl who's features, traits & harmless existence have always been insulted, hated & envied by the whole world. Esp not all at once. That is something totally unique to us inflicted & imposed by everyone else since the beginning of time. So why be out here chasing clout under tags & movements & in spaces you are no real part of? Why wanna be a part of the Black Girl Experience that bad? Yall have identities in everything outside of us. Why vulture off of this like you even have reasons to be there? We were investing in ourselves & trying to teach generations of Monoracial Black People how to manage their hair texture & develop cathartic habits thru self care. Nb ppl ruined that.

Looser hair textures have omnipresent representation & acceptance all, over, the, world. There is no lack of being seen, romanticized or exemplified for having texture 1a-3b hair; esp on the prevalent basis around colorism we see regularly on social media & on tv. Yet what remains of the community as it stands is today the furthest thing from textured or Black at all. At this point we owe the decline (if not death) of the natural hair community to the parasitic latching of non black women, the infiltration of "pick me's" & antiblackness generally — but I still be feeling like even that's not direct enough. We're talking ab something authentic & wholesome for Monoracial Black Women created by us for us being straight up sabotaged by races of women the cause was totally irrelevant to & in regard of. Bc that's how cosmetic industries have been towards us for centuries. Bc we were always excluded & thought of least & last. By other women. By all other women; don't get it twisted. So we set out on figuring ourselves out. Doing research on our own. Incorporating self care & beneficial habits in our lives to nourish & feel better ab ourselves & disprove the racist shit non black cultures & ppl either ignorantly surmise, make up or project ab Black Girls. That includes Black Men too in case yall thought yall were safe. Yall are some of the most toxic & prevalent faces behind colorism, antiblackness & misogynoir among black ppl specifically.

But anyhow. At first a lot of the initiation of the vulturing in the nhc light skinned women were the face of. Esp w the clout around having 4c hair amongst the beige-est, most ambiguously or straight up non black individuals, good lord. Then it went mainstream for huwight ppl, whom enevitably invited themselves, & following were the masses of non black women looking to pillage for themselves while the community was being swallowed by the crowdedness & irrelevant content being put out there (specifically on YouTube, Twitter & Instagram) by "hair gurus" of the light skinned, biracial or non black texture 1a-3b variety. Hair gurus who literally may as well've fallen from the sky & met social media stardom overnight based on their hair texture & complexion alone they're so brand new. Hair gurus who aren't even in the community for legitimately informative reasons or purposes unionized in Blackness. They're whole natural hair niche be — as a favorite natural of mine put it — manipulating textured hair into a sort of submission to appear or behave like looser textures do. They'll swear by 'game changer' products they both mention & only use like once & insist you should invest in a $30 8oz. bottle of clarifying shampoo or a $35 cowash if you want your hair to behave & look like theirs. Again, mind you, these types of individuals casually claim having texture 4 hair when they're anything but, just for the attention it brings from both ppl who will gullibly follow their every word & who know what kind of scamming to look for & won't.

If it's "just hair", how come so many of you that are non black are riding the wave? If it's just hair, why have so many of you found refuge in using the hashtags & participating/contributing uninvited? How come so many ran to get a seat at the table w Black Women only to kick them to the side the more popular it became if its just hair? How come nobody was calling it natural hair before Black Women created the nhc & started growing their own? Why was there no natural hair community before Black Women coined it, reminder, for ourselves? If it's just hair, how come so many ran to youtube to begin w to start channels for their own non-textured journeys? If its just hair, why is the nhc so damn obsessed w defining curls & length than overall health & gradual growth? If its just hair, why are white girls anywhere near this? Yall are the most out of place of anyone, honestly. Even if you're curly. Why do light skinned girls get to both represent textured hair & "good hair"? How does that even make sense? Thats just putting monoracial black girls in isolated boxes they're not even allowed to be symbols of or in. If its just hair, why's it so unheard of to see the roles of Black female characters in just ab anything played by actual Black Women? If its just hair, why have so many non or partially Black women worked in ignorant succession to water down & essentially wash out the Monoracial Black Women vital to the community's relevance at all? I really do not get the involvement of non black women in this movement at all — esp when culturally you have no reason to call your hair natural. There are no & have never been prejudice notions around having or growing texture 1a-3b hair. There's nothing oppressive ab it, either. Yall have gotta stop w that. You've already made a mockery of something that was supposed to be beautiful by making yourselves comfortable in & hijacking our space itfp. Theres far too much misrepresentation of textured hair to keep up w now. This is why i say the nhc (as well as culture vulturing generally) has just become nbwoc copying white women copying light skinned women copying Black Women, bc the audacity is unreal.

Its not just hair tho. To those it applies to, yall proved that the minute Black Women started going public w their growth journeys. The minute conversations ab "shrinkage this & 4c that" broadened & went mainstream. Yall couldn't move all at once fast enough when you realized you weren't as special as you thought & had always been told — esp w melanin at its modern value. Now all yall either "natural", seeking black men for either casual sex or cultural infiltration via fetishised reproduction, certain you have texture 4 hair or know the best tips for a DIY silk press 🤭😂 yall can't sit w us. You don't belong here. I'm calling yall out on allll the bs around this "All Hair Matters" garbage, cus yall are now sputtering the same shit while literally wearing your own non black hair in black styles. Be consistent. Make some fucking sense. I don't wanna be part of this fake ass girl squad propaganda that says every other woman never looked at Black Women's hair like it was bottomest of the barrel, foh. We're not on the same team & yall know it.

[a-story-teller]

Top 3 Era/MV looks for every NCT member

Taeil: Chain, Without U, Cherry Bomb - Runner up, Regular Irregular Office (w that slick ass undercut... his power)

Johnny: Cherry Bomb, Highway to Heaven, Punch - Runner up, Day Dream. He gives me butterflies Help

Taeyong: Seventh Sense, Baby Don’t Stop/Boss, Kick It - Runner up, Make A Wish - TAEYONG CHANDELIER TAEYONG CHANDELIER

Yuta: Touch (the orange bg LOOK), Regular, DREAMS COME TRUE... wow - Runner up, Punch. It’s Yuta’s world, we’re just living in it

Kun: Black on Black, Dream Launch, Turn Back Time - Runner up, Bad Alive - this boy pulls pussy like Mad you can’t tell me otherwise

Doyoung: Yestoday, Chain, Highway to Heaven - Runner up, Elevator - his lil glasses? Adorable.

Ten: Baby Don’t Stop, New Heroes, REGULAR HOLY FUCK (Chinese Version)- Runner up, Bad Alive. Chest ALL the way out, tattoo on display... u wanna b him

Jaehyun: Kick It, White Night, Punch. Yes these are all one “Era” but v dif looks - Runner up, Like Me Better bc he’s just so Cute and Squishy ahhh dimples

Sicheng: Firetruck, Regular (Korean/English Version), Let Me Love U  - Runner up, Boss - the lollipop is iconic! 

Jungwoo: Boss, Highway to Heaven, 2020 Year Party - Runner up, Boom - his little beret? Big Babie Energy... The sweetest...

Lucas: Take Off, Turn Back Time (the white hair tho), Make a Wish - Runner up - See The V (CAN WE TALK ABOUT THAT SUUUUIT)

Mark: Chain, Regular (with the wavy hair!), Misfit -  Runner up, Limitless (Japanese Version). I love Mark with some eyeliner.

Xiaojun: Regular (Chinese Version), Moonwalking, Turn Back Time - Runner up, Make A Wish. The energy is palpable.

Hendery: Let Me Love U, Regular (Chinese Version), 2020 Year Party  Runner up, Turn Back Time... The pool scene? Iconique

Renjun: We Young, Boom, Ridin’ - Runner up, Chewing Gum - he just looked so utterly cute and Babie!

Jeno: Black on Black, Candlelight, 2020 Year Party - Runner Up - We Young - The white hair suited him sooo well!

Haechan: Simon Says, Boom, 2020 Year Party - Runner up, Deja Vu. I just love wavy looks on this kid.

Jaemin: We Go Up, Ridin’, Make a Wish - Runner up, Boom. The graphic look worked really well, esp. w the fluffy hair.

YangYang: Take Off (w the black overall pants. Wow), Moonwalking, Love Talk - Runner up, Regular (Chinese Version) his mullet is adorable :)

Shotaro: N/A, unfortunately

Sungchan: N/A, unfortunately

Chenle: We Young, Black on Black, DNYL - Runner up, MFAL school uniform look with curly hair

Jisung: Chewing Gum (unlock Max Baby Mode), Go, 2020 Year Party - Runner up, We Go Up, specifically the car/water fight portion - super cute!

[decompose1]

hey there, i saw your post w/ antisemitic dogwhistles and there was a question i saw in the notes ... i'm not sure if you've answered it directly so i thought it'd be best to send it to you. a few people pointed out that six-pointed stars have been used for sheriff badges in the past - do you have any input or advice for telling apart blatant antisemitism versus someone simply (and most likely ignorantly) using those past badges? sorry this is so wordy, but thank you for your time

hey!

i said that mainly in reference to a LOT of the antisemitic propaganda art i have been seeing, so trust me when i say i am not just pulling this out of my ass. one of these in particular is a set of images i’ve seen circulating around-- i am struggling to find it again (because the person i messaged about it deleted the post, having not recognized the dogwhistles). it is titled like “the artist of these died a few days ago” or smth to make it some Big Conspiracy when he was a fucking antisemitic freak and EVERY art piece sucked.

in these particular images, their uniforms had patches that WERE the star of david, and said “ZION” in big letters. so.... ya.

(MOST jewish people are anti zionist, but this was LITERALLY intended to portray all Jews as zionists. this was NOT a critique of Israel’s cruel police force. this was alongside other BLATANTLY ANTISEMITIC art- before anyone, like, accuses me of not understanding that. a pig is a pig is a pig.)

this image was alongside other pics with lizard people references, “israeli organ sales”, giant hooked noses.... yeah. no thanks.

another recent example was a pic of a “punk” wearing an iron cross, next to the gravestone of a “cop”, but it, also, had the star of david on it.

this is SHOCKINGLY COMMON, and nazis ABSOLUTELY DO take advantage of old sheriff badges being six-pointed.

so here’s my rule of thumb:

look at the whole picture. is there ANYTHING else fishy about it? how is it drawn? are there iron crosses on the “punks” or “rebels”? are there other common nazi propaganda references, such as large hooked noses, curly hair, kippot/balding, reptile person, etc.? are there big references to money, esp gold? are there references to a secret organization running the world?

keep in mind most modern police badges are not stars, and many that are have those little round nodules at the end.

just keep an eye out! use your best judgement, and if something seems fishy, either don’t risk it, or ASK a jewish person. no harm in that.

[wayhavenlesbian]

so anyway i’m probably gonna be asleep whenever u send off ur commission email bc i am NOT getting up early on a saturday god bless. here’s all my shit. I included a few pics n options in case one wasnt enough??? and i sleep a lot tmrw? idk

so anyway here’s fred:

and a couple more reference pics which are basically useless cause she makes almost the same face in all of them. however these were the ones i could find w the hairstyle i wanted + no hair/glasses blocking her face. brown hair and brown eyes, in case u usually specify or if the other fcs hair/eyes don’t match ur detectives

her name’s maud le fort if she wants to look her up, but i got more pics if she needs them!

also um for the outfit. i DO like the strawberry shirt but i realize drawing curly hair and a pattern is probably a pain in the ass, esp when there’s other charas to draw too. so if it’s a no on the strawberries then the pink shirt (solid colour) is totally fine! also i’m kinda split on the decision anyway so if u guys have preferences i don’t rly care either way

for the pants i was just thinking black jeans. i can get a ref pic if necessary but like. just black jeans

also um feel free to edit out my rambling for the email or whatever im abt to go to bed probably and i dont wanna put any more effort into looking for reference pics rn LMAO. ty for the homework steph ❤️

[studylustre]

hi carol this stupid boy is about to make me lose my MIND bc he’s on this trip w me and we’re so close and he’s so funny and genuinely sweet and confident and cute and also hot somehow oof and he’s got a girlfriend in the states so i was like lol ok guess i’ll just be sad but he’s flirty and shit all the damn time so i’m confused af like he’ll just pick me up and carry me and pull out my chair for me and hold my knee under the table skdjskdjks what does this MEAN i need ANSWERS - 🦉

(cont) AND!!! PART FUCKEN TWO!!!!! today i made a finsta post with a slide of pics and the fourth or fifth one was both of us t posing (lmao) with me on his back and i tagged him but he SNAPPED ME AND ASKED ME TO UNTAG HIM because he doesn’t want his gf to “throw a fit” like hold the fuck up if THAT would make her throw a fit she’s beat his ass if she saw how he acts here!!!! AND!!! u rlly thought i was finished!!!!! i wear a ring around a lot and he likes to take it (and wear it on his pinky which has me weak bc the only finger on my hand big enough for it is my thumb) and so i snatch the hair tie he wears around so i remember to get my ring back and he doesn’t have long hair but it’s a curly hair tie that’s rlly popular in france so i assumed he bought one to fidget with but ITS HIS GIRLFRIENDS AND IVE BEEN WEARING IT AROUND FOR A WEEK and! (this is the last one) the other day i dropped my ring and someone stepped on it so now it’s a little squashed and it’s too big for even my thumb now so i told him he could just keep it and this man has been wearing it around ON HIS RING FINGER WHAT THE FUCK!! anyways sorry about that in better news my host fams cat barnabée missed me when i went to concarneau last night and she’s being cuddly :)

ok i’m straight up gonna say i do not like the sound of this guy dfsjglkdfjgldjkfg like i rly hope it’s ok for me to say that bc i view y’all, esp u regular anons, as my friends who i rly care for and want to look out for and this guy??? is being super flirty with u whilst in a relationship and that’s???? not ok?? why is he holding ur knee under tables and being all shady about being in pictures with u like his gf has every right to “throw a fit” (don’t like his phrasing here :///) with how he’s acting,,,, honestly i rly would encourage u to maintain ur distance from this guy bc he kinda sounds like a player and i feel like this could end in a v messy, painful way and i’d rather u avoid all that hurt..... anyway YAY FOR CUTE CAT INTERACTIONS i lov u owl anon and barnabée and i hope y’all are happy and thriving

[vanteslens]

I been called ugly by so many people since forever, and I know I am not attractive by the world's standards but it hurts and I don't know how to take care of myself or try to be myself, could please give me some advice??

i’m really sorry about what happened to you. as someone who been through the same thing, achieving self love isn't easy and the scars can follow you throughout your whole life. i mean, i’m terrified to post my selfies here lol. countless times i’ve came home crying because of my classmates said about my looks and all started when i was 10 y/o. and i couldn’t hide my feelings so they considered me the weakest link. i’ll tell you my story and i hope it will help you to love yourself. 

since i've learned about feminism/racism/beauty standards i realized that this is more than just kids being mean to each other and yes it involves politics. for example, one of my dad’s infamous jokes “why women doesn’t rule the world? they’re to occupied caring about their hair” (i know 😷😷 at least he allows me to call his sexist ass out and says sorry). but what it all meant: ads/media/other people make us believe in lies (women especially and men increasing) like our self worth and value comes from how we look and that the only way you can be considered good looking is being young, white / light skin, thin, straight hair, perfect face and tons of other details photoshop made. 

while we spend a stupid amount of time and money trying to achieve this unrealistic version of beauty, we also know we are going to fail and we feel ashamed to fail it. all of this lead to tons of tons toxic behaviors towards ourselves and others around us. i’ll link some sources about this bellow.

ofc that knowing where those pressures came from and why they exist didn’t make me feel prettier or good enough. then i started to overcompensate my abilities like ‘i may be not beautiful but i may be good at other stuff’. sadly i had some toxic friends at the time who told me years after that they never laugh of my jokes bc it was funny, so i still feel like i’m not that funny. i’ve been told from all my teachers that i’m smart so i started to focused all my self worth on my intelligence and it felt a bit empowering bc my classmates hated the way teachers treated me as i was next marie curie or something. on the downside, i also looked down on them because they were noisy, superficial, party people and esp they could not reach my good grades even when i didn’t studied for a test. it was heavily problematic.

after high school, i had to enter university. here, to enter university you must do the yearly national exam and submit your score to the course you want and everyone who applied will be ranked by scores. in my first year, i didn’t enter university (only on my 3rd time i got in) and all of people who didn’t like me in high scool were filled with joy since they got in and i didn’t. it was also important to me to realize that i can’t base all my self worth in just one item about my personality. why? first, even to be beautiful, you need to take care of it (going to the gym, using makeup, having nice clothes, etc) so is as being smart (you need to study and improve how you study). besides, we are human beings and we are way more than a “nerdy” box or “beauty queen” box. and second how can i still be myself if this only characteristic is taken away from me? competing for university made me realize that i wasn’t as smart or the only one smart student i thought i was. so, who am i?

nowadays i know that i’m good at some stuff and that i can always improve on it and help other people with it. i also have bad in me that i need to develop too. and it’s okay to be different, it’s okay to not be on beauty standards bc most people aren’t. i started to pick things i like of myself and be like ‘my plump lips are beautiful’, ‘my hands are very feminine’, ‘i like how smart i am even tho i don’t have straight A+’s’, ‘i can make good presentations even tho i still need to work on how to be more sociable’ or being self aware too, even tho i’m genetically thin, that doesn’t mean other types of body are ugly or it’s ok to have flaws too. ofc this isn’t easy or practical as i wrote it but remember that you have value and you deserve good things! you can be beautiful even tho society (ads/media) doesn’t value it or even if you don’t know it yet. don’t let what people think/say about you define what you are! esp bc they don’t know you!

for example, even taehyung once said that he prefers long straight hair on woman. does that hurt me a little? yes. does that means i am ugly? no. he doesn’t even know me and probably never will so what’s the point of let this comment get under my skin? i know i’m beautiful and valid and i have tons of good to offer to the world than just having the right type and lenght of hair. plus, love isn’t worth if you are not being loved because of who you are.

most of this is about self yourself and being a woman but ofc if you’re not a woman you can identify with it...

What It Means To Be Pretty women talking about the pressure of being beautiful in society and tips on feeling happy and beautiful about yourself.

FEELING UGLY | hellokaty  & How To Be Pretty | hellokaty this video made me cry everytime sjhddf but as she says you have project your image so people can see your beauty (in being strong, smart, funny, etc)

THE PROBLEM WITH BOYS | An Analysis & HOW TO GET A BOY TO LIKE YOU | hellokaty the title is misleading trust me jasdgsf (this also applies to girls too). this is about how women (but can be applied to men too) base self worth on how to make someone like you.

Why thinking you're ugly is bad for you | Meaghan Ramsey how hating yourself can affect your heath (mental and physical).

What Comes After Loving Yourself? Advice from a Fat Fly Brown Girl | Yesika Salgado | TEDxCalStateLA i even tho i’m not fat, i had many friends who are and that they talked to me a lot about their issues and obvs i know my body type is something very few people have and that it shouldn’t be the only one to be branded as beautiful

Black British women and the natural hair movement | Identity | one of the examples that loving yourself can be a political statement too. my hair isn’t afro but it’s curly (3a) and i started straightening my hair w chemicals when i was 14 y/o. i stopped to put straighten my hair w chemicals for 3 years and i’m 22 rn.

The Sexy Lie: Caroline Heldman at TEDxYouth@SanDiego this talk is more about how self objectification (believes that one serves to another’s sexual pleasure) can impact on your mental health

The dangerous ways ads see women | Jean Kilbourne | TEDxLafayetteCollege mind-blowing! i love this woman and her talk changed my life. this is a must see!

i really hope this could be helpful for you! i’ve actually never talked about self love neither being this open about my issues. i hope you have a nice day 💕

[cmcrson-blog]

WHATS UP Y’ALL ITS YA BITCH NICKI AGAIN N IM SO EXCITED TO INTRODUCE YOU TO MY SOFT LIL FIGHTER BABY EMERSON WHO I LOVE V MUCH AND I HOPE YALL WILL TOO. LIKE THIS N ILL COME TO U FOR PLOTS (for both her n mack if we havent already!!)

ABOUT EMERSON 

TW VIOLENCE AND FIGHTING

EMERSON BLACKWOOD. 20. ENGLISH LIT MAJOR. PISCES. WEREWOLF. COULD PROBABLY SNAP UR SPINE LIKE A TOOTHPICK BUT REALLY JUST WANTS TO CUDDLE.

ok so while most, if not all, the students at hexlore were raised supernatural, em wasn't 

emerson was actually born human and had a perfectly normal childhood up until around the age of 15 

for reasons she doesn't readily talk about, she was hexed by a very powerful witch with the lycanthropy curse 

her parents and siblings obviously didnt believe her, so when she transformed one night unexpectedly, they ended up thinking she was a wild wolf who had gotten into the house and killed her. they attacked her and she was left within an inch of her life before she could escape

she would have died that night if it weren't for pure luck that a travelling pack was passing through the wooded area where she had ended up collapsing. they stayed there with her for the night and healed her up, taking her in and initiating her into their pack. with nothing left to lose and a spirit as broken as hers, she accepted it and left with them. 

not only did she join a big pack, she joined a freaking strong one, and as the newest recruit she was the runt of the group. she felt more like a burden than an actual pack member, so she began to train in order to earn her place 

though they were a wandering pack, they'd stop in cities long enough for her and the other minors in the pack to be able to finish a solid school year, and in each new city, em would become a permanent fixture at their local gym. every day, she was there, working on getting stronger and more powerful and being able to prove herself. too swole to control bro

 all the bullshit she had gone through ignited something within her, something equal parts destructive and encouraging. her pain transformed itself into pure, unfiltered rage, which has become the staple of emerson's personality 

first off— she is (thankfully) the OPPOSITE of mack's dumb ass lmaooo

she’s really reserved and not very outgoing (just a lil shy..... wow how cute). she’s this tol cute bean with this long curly hair and these big blue eyes so she’s not exactly unapproachable but she’s also buff as FUQ and has this mysterious, enigmatic energy to her and tbh that makes her lowkey scary to approach

esp also considering that she’s almost ALWAYS got a black eye or bloodied knuckles or bruises scattering her body, she kinda looks terrifying and like she might try to snap ur arm in half

she’s honestly a super sweet soft soul, she genuinely is just bubbling with kindness and good intentions but she tries to keep her distance from the world bc oh dear 

emerson has a fucking TEMPER

and it’s not the “i’ll snap and be petty” it’s a “i won’t react until you keep pushing my buttons and then i’ll fucking snap and smash a table in half, punch a hole in the wall, and say a LOT of things i’ll regret”

she recognizes how dangerous and harmful this pent up aggression and rage is so she genuinely tries to keep it under check by withdrawing from a lot of over-stimulating situations and environments

she’s that bitch™ who’s always like “i...... i should go....” 

you would expect her to be this angry cynical bitch but honestly?? she keeps the anger beneath the surface tbh she’s really sweet and gentle. she’s also like.... a hopeless romantic and believes in being kind to the world and she’s SUCH A GOOD ARTIST but her main passion is honestly fighting so that’s why she hasn’t dropped it entirely despite how dangerous it is

she’s really scared that one of these days, her feelings are just gonna shut down and she’ll lose her humanity and get consumed my her own darkness and just become this awful angry monster of a person, which is why she tries SO DAMN HARD to be kind and gentle and good

(lowkey she’s gonna turn it off eventually for a hot minute bc i def want to play dark!emerson at some point HKJFHKHF)

also.... she’s loyal to a fucking FAULT nd would prob take a bullet for her loved ones. its altruism at its finest with this one. she’s also pretty softspoken but definitely stands up for what’s right, she won’t hesitate to literally snap ur fucking femur if you’re fucking with someone you shouldn’t be

on that note— she’s STRONG. like almost excessively strong, partially bc of her training 24/7, also partially bc her anger fuels her additional strength. but like.... she has the potential to honestly be an alpha if she really pushed herself

if i had to compare her to some characters from modern media..... stefan salvatore, the iron giant, scott mccall??

tldr: basically a big dreamy beefcake with anger issues who could probably snap u in half if u fuck with her loved ones. also has a sad past but is tryna turn her shit around without hurting anyone in the process which makes her reserved n secretive oh nooo

WANTED CONNECTIONS

crushes: one sided, mutual, lowkey, highkey infatuation, pls just give em the ability to be cute and sweet but also sometimes a bumbling fool

i want a plot where em admires someone from afar and is just like.... soft n always leaves them flowers or draws them in her little sketchbook

besties: emerson literally goes along w everything thus making her a valuable member to any and all squads. she’s also versatile, she can go from being that art nerd friend to that jock/fighter friend to that mom friend to that innocent friend to that leader friend. literally give my puppy of a person some buds pls

fighting plots: people who help her train, people who want her to stop, a love interest who bandages her up every time after a bad fight, anything pls

guardian: someone em looks out for fiercely and protectively or someone who looks out for her too n checks up on her when she has her bad moments

exes: she’s demisexual & demiromantic so she only starts to fall for people that she’s gotten to know or at least knows about. i really want an ex (or a few??) that were super cute and sweet when they dated but then em just kinda ended things out of nowhere? maybe she ghosted them, broke up over text, literally so out of nowhere and ur muse doesnt know why??? but it’s actually because em was too scared she’d end up hurting them so she ended things as a preemptive move to protect everyone

coworkers/customers: she works on campus somewhere bc she needs that cash money (im thinkin library) so i’d love a few plots of either people who work with her or people she sees constantly bc theyre always coming in??

“but nicki,” u may be asking, “where’s the fwb plots??” 

SURPRISE BITCH EMERSON’S A    V I R G I N

considering that mack is a heathen who prob has enough sex for the both of them i wanted to make emerson way more inexperienced since this bitch doesn’t like to get too attached to ppl

which means new potential wanted connection: her first time

[lilyevane]

ok so like this is probably the only ask game i will ever do (+ i have a constant track record of not doing ask games --> so this is like me saying sorry to all the lovely souls who tagged me in things i am SORRY it’s just my lazy ass tbh)

so i was tagged to do this by: @hiddenpolkadots / @prongsno / @paddfoot so thank u sm all of u i love you all to the moon and back ok xx (also i am sorry if you tagged me and i didn’t tag you here i suck at remembering things like that haha)

and i am going to tag: @fjrebolt @residentpotter @jamespottuh @ohpallas @katiebells @cupcakeblake and technically many others this list could go on hehe --> also anyone else feel free to do this and tag me in it i love reading these :DD

1: are you named after someone? hm hm am i named after someone?? well liyah is a pretty ordinary name tbh though i do know my mother was after something to do with flowers but no one acquiesced to that so i got stuck with liyah (dunno whERE that came from)

2: when was the last time you cried? i cry like literally all the time for no reason at all rip me but i guess the last proper time was when i watched fantastic beasts (*CRIES*)

3: do you like your handwriting? yes, i really really like my handwriting, though i hate it when i come out of like some cold place or it’s been a long while since i’ve written

4: what is your favourite lunch meat? um.. idk what to say though i’ll go with turkey :’)

5: do you have kids? hell to the noo i aint even married yet

6: if you were another person, would you be friends with you? hmm, i guess?? like i probably would bc i am quite friendly and all though i probably would get pissed at myself bc i’m so stubborn 

7: do you use sarcasm? do i use sarcasm? do?? i?? use?? sarcasm?? 

8: do you still have your tonsils? yes yes

9: would you bungee jump? asdfhjkl i’m one of those kids who piss their pants to jump over a fucking fence let alone from a cliff or smth

10: what is your favourite kind of cereal? hmm i remember i kinda just lost that kinda feel to eat cereal ever since i had to eat coco pops with warm milk once?? idek how and why that happened but ever since then i’ve been so stubborn when it comes to cereal though i guess just normal cornflakes are nice (oh yes and cheerios aren’t bad as well)

11: do you untie your shoes when you take them off? i hate wearing shoes with laces (bc i am crap at them) so i resort to flats or pumps or boots, though if i did wear them i’d probably take them off untied (if i could) and if not i would have to untie them

12: do you think you’re a strong person? hmm i guess i am kinda strong but in the emotional way i can get weak like that easily for some reason?? i mean sometimes i literally just see something not very triggering and feel like crying lmao (or maybe it’s just those mood swings)

13: what is your favourite ice cream flavour? hmmm (clearly racks their brain for the answer) probably mint choc chip because that’s HEAVEN but also fudge (i’ve had this before and i LOVED IT) wouldn’t go amiss

14: what is the first thing you notice about people? hmm idk?? i guess i just notice their facial expression pretty much and their full self?? basically whatever i see first

16: what is the least favourite physical thing you like about yourself? well i won’t say my height (even tho i want to) because i am tall asf but i guess my hair damnn can be really annoying bc it is quite curly and wavy and straight and BASICALLY HARD TO TAME

17: what colour pants and shoes are you wearing now? i’m wearing black leggings lmao and no shoes bc i’m in a room in my house (why do people wear shoes inside pls tell me)

19: what are you listening to right now? not atm nothing bc i am too lazy but if you find me ten minutes later i’ll be screaming to shape of you by ed sheeran so yeah haha

20: if you were a crayon, what colour would you be? maybe maroon?? or burgundy? idk why i associate myself with that colour but for some reason even my friends agree i suit that colour lmao

21: favourite smell? the smell when you buy new books and flick through the pages, wet grass, when you enter a new house and it just smells of paint adfghjkl and maybe just after it’s rained bless it smells so nice

22: who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my dad probably to let him know i’ll be coming home late or smth

23: favourite sport to watch? i guess whatever just kinda catches my eye? probably football though, and that is only when i’m in the mood?

24: hair color? brown lmao though when i go into the sun it looks like light brown?? idk haha

25: eye colour? dark brown/black i have no idea

26: do you wear contacts? i hate the idea of something plastic in your eye so i stick to dear ol’ glasses

27: favourite food to eat? ok so like spaghetti is a FAVE it’s so nice esp the way my mum makes it and chicken roast and steak and lasagne (*muted screaming*) also brownies if desserts count (bc they are heaven i will slap whoever disagrees w/ me)

28: scary movies or comedy? i’m that kinda person who will get all over excited to watch a horror movie but then i’ll be screaming and regretting it by the end but probably horror (tho only with my friends) but comedy is nice too (but like.. i have a very weird sense of humour so lol)

29: last movie you watched? i was rewatching pride and prejudice the other day bless that movie i love it so much it makes me want to cry

30: what colour of shirt are you wearing? i am wearing a dress atm + it’s like kinda checkered with dark blue and red and white and all BASICALLY IT LOOKS LIKE TARTAN

31: summer or winter? ok so i like neither hate nor love either because both will be either too cold or too hot though i DIG SPRING bc it’s the season i was born in + it’s just perfect and wonderful and just spring-y

32: hugs or kisses? hugs hugs gimme all your hugs

33: what book are you currently reading? i’m not currently reading anything (which makes me vv sad) tho the last book i (re)read was pride and prejudice lol

34: who do you miss right now? my fRIENDS and my cousins rip me i miss them everyday 35: what is on your mouse pad? ew what’s that i have a laptop 36: what is the last tv program you watched? TEEN WOLF adfghkll i could talk abt it all day

37: what is the best sound? ok so i agree with you bri waves are just... so calming?? i love it sm also i love the sound of silence (like not that stupid song which my teacher annoyingly points out all the time) but just SILENCE in itself is so nice + the wind and the trees rustling along with it (it’s so rejuvenating)

38: rolling stones or the beatles? hmm probably the beatles

39: what is the furthest you have ever traveled? the furthest i have ever travelled would probably be new zealand (i mean it’s vv far away so)

40: do you have a special talent? idk tbh but i guess (according to my friends) i am ambidextrous?? i will never believe them bc i am left-handed and my right hand is shit but whatever @ that + probably procrastination (*cries because that’s the only thing i can do without fail*) i mean if you would believe i’m supposed to be finishing off an english lit piece rn but noope i’m doing this instead

41: where were you born? britain !!

ok so that was hella long and i would personally like to thank whoever actually read all of it thank u and bye let me go do that english homework before i end up resorting to doing it somehow in school tomorrow eep

[kouhaiofcolor]

Just gonna go ahead & say it. interracial dating is not necessarily “progressive” or undoing racism in any capacity when like 99.99% of the time interracial relationships are one-dimentionally marketed as black male × white female. there's hardly ever any alternative (or even just generally broad) representation otherwise. i cannot speak for what marketing is like in other regions of the world, but here in the US at least, you see more commercials, advertising, movies & tv shows that endorse bmwf relationships than quite literally any other combination of interracial pairings & that is truly odd & transparent. esp where colorism & antiblackness are, let's say governing, around relationships between antiblack black men & culture vulture/misogynoir white women.

even wmbf pairings are sparse as hell; & that's literally just the genderswap of the same kind of interracial depiction. Black Women periodT, do not get portrayed in interracial relationships at all next to how often black men are. really think ab that. the wheels have turned so dramatically in fact, that Black Women have suffered a social demotion so profound at the v hands & passive will of Black men & nb women, we're looked at as less valuable than black men these days. so we don't get even a slither of representation interracially — & then they get included in more shit than we do full stop. even with every woman in every corner of the world thirsting to emulate us every single day in every single way. that is truly wild. it's like corporations have taken it upon themselves to capitalize off of not necessarily misogynoir ig, but definitely off of black men both significantly famous & significantly otherwise who aggressively establish how opposed they are to being involved romantically w black women; whether anyone asks, is interested or not. we can't overlook white women taking full advantage of this, either, but truthfully they've had a historic streak in dismantling black family structures for just as long as white men so we don't even have to delve into that. slavery, racial fetishisation & washing of monoracial black love is the face-value irony ofc (which is why calling this particular interracial corporate fav “progressive” has always sounded contradicting to me).

it will never not be wild to me how straight up uncomfortable/pressed it makes society to see a monoracial black couple genuinely love & be committed to each other; esp a dark skinned pair, Good Lord. that's pretty much ‘least aesthetically pleasing’ in most pop culture industries, lbr. which is why a lot of different brands have also jumped on the dark skinned black men × light skinned black women bandwagon as an easy copout. then what's ironic ab that is the equally controversial fetishisation around making biracial children directly related to racist stigmas ab producing children that are dark or brown skinned (speaking of swirlers, whom again are often black men & white women); not to mention those same biracial children being creepily put on social pedestals around colorism, featurism, as well as prejudices around hair texture. add to that how even more divisive antiblackness susceptibily makes biracial groups just to keep up w trends & ideals around fair complexions & particularly curly hair.

it's just odd how interracial couples are hardly ever not black men & white women is what I'm getting at. you don't even see them paired w other races anywhere near as much; never a white girl & an singaporean man, or a black man & a sri lankan woman. like I said, we see Monoracially Black Couples even less — which is even weirder. Bc if any race of ppl deserve controlling the narrative of their own cultural love, it would definitely be Black Folk. everybody feels like they can better cast & be a romantic partner for a black man with agendas to essentially exclude black women entirely & that — for the love of God & every Black Woman constantly invalidated & belittled by our own men & nb women indifferently & like always — is not ok at all.

stop half-assing the relevance of other interracial relationships to lowkey perpetuate antiblackness & the fetishisation behind bmwf relationships; we see what's going on. At least I do. honestly i don't think it's progressive at all to endorse white ppl in particular being in interracial relationships they fetishise openly af both in spite & bc of historic racial prejudice. like how in God's name are we basically open to eugenic exercise in 2020 & ignorantly misappropriating it as beneficially futuristic? Esp for our own communities & Black heritage, the vindictive swirl shit antiBlack black men be on is some truly backwards bullshit. more than that, there is a true abundance of many different races of ppl in this world besides Black men & white women. if film & marketing industries literally only have the energy to portray interracial relationships thru bmwf couples & the children they produce then imo that is just lazy & misogynoir af. & pretty insinuative as to the kinds of future generations corporate industries as well as brands are adapting to prune & profitably objectify for, you guessed it, being biracial. so yay, rite? .-. nobody that matters loses & nobody that loses matters type shit. i get it. & I see thru the illusions.

it's like market logic be like: “if it's gonna be interracial the guy has to be black; & preferably w/ a white woman. uwu just for like, mainstream purposes around ‘dissolving’ racial division, yknow? & if he must be w/ a black woman, honestly the best you'll get is one who is intentionally racially ambiguous. 😲 not for uhh,,,, not for colorist reasons or anything. 😅 black men are fine. we LOVE using black men. of any kind. Er.... that didn't come out right, either, heh 😶 its black women we don— 😧 i-i-i mean,,,, what we mean to say is...,, ahem, black women are just a little... more difficult different to uh. to market. err, advertise. interracially. *cough!*..... 👀uhm,, we love woc & understand how important it is to represent black women fairly as well as accurately. we just have a,,... harmless preference in casting them thru fair-skinned or half black women. if that's fine. 🤐 a-and again, we totally understand that it in fact is not. we just..... 👉🏻👈🏻i mean..... what would you all like us to do? besides literally just stop whitewashing the roles of Monoracial Black Women to conservative hollywood's satisfaction? & besides just pairing mono black ppl w other mono black ppl & allowing Black Love to be represented the way it has literally never been given the chance w/o white intolerance/interference?🤷🏼‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♂️”

[mimiceon]

answer all of them

When I said I would block you,,,, There’s a lot more than one way to get blocked. Anyway, I’m putting this under a read more bc I hate you and it’s long. If you want to know more about me than strictly necessary then click read more, rip in pieces to those on mobile.

Also: I W I N

200: My crush’s name is:No one,,, or is it (lol it’s no one)199: I was born in: Ireland, 1998198: I am really: Annoying, probably197: My cellphone company is: 3 mobile196: My eye color is: Blue195: My shoe size is: 5194: My ring size is: IDK?? I have my Cladddagh ring but I don’t remember193: My height is: 5′‘2192: I am allergic to: nothing191: My 1st car was: I can’t drive190: My 1st job was: babysitter189: Last book you read: Foster (it’s shit)188: My bed is: A double bed?? really comfy?? I have no parameters here187: My pet: I don’t have one186: My best friend: Emma, a certified Dork185: My favorite shampoo is: Elvive, it has glitter184: Xbox or ps3: Xbox183: Piggy banks are: Cool??182: In my pockets: I’m in pajamas181: On my calendar: nothing all week save Graduation on Thursday180: Marriage is: Coolio 179: Spongebob can: be happy, levae him be178: My mom: is coolio177: The last three songs I bought were? Decpacito, Issues, and Horns176: Last YouTube video watched: Vine compilations, sue me175: How many cousins do you have? Too Many, family reunions are wild174: Do you have any siblings? 4 bothers and one sister173: Are your parents divorced? Yes172: Are you taller than your mom? Yes171: Do you play an instrument? *Flashbacks to recorder practice* It’s required in Ireland so yeah170: What did you do yesterday? Went shopping and bought my graduation outfit[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: yes (I’m a mushy person don’t drag me)168: Luck: yes, Luck of The Irish, I’ve never had it, but it’s there167: Fate: Yes, it’s fate I’m gonna kick ur ass166: Yourself: N O165: Aliens: yes, I wanna fuck superman, I have to believe164: Heaven: ??163: Hell:???162: God:?????161: Horoscopes: yeah I’m a Leo (August 19th, mark your calender)160: Soul mates: Yes 159: Ghosts: Fuck yeah, my firends house is haunted158: Gay Marriage: I’m a bisexual,,,, so Y E S157: War: No (?)156: Orbs: *flashbacks to fanfics* … don’t…155: Magic: Y E S[ This or That ]  (I’m bisexual,,,,, why u asking me to choose) 154: Hugs or Kisses: Kisses!153: Drunk or High: Drunk152: Phone or Online: Online151: Red heads or Black haired: Black hair 150: Blondes or Brunettes: blondes149: Hot or cold: Cold148: Summer or winter: Winter147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn146: Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate145: Night or Day: Night144: Oranges or Apples: Apples143: Curly or Straight hair: Straight142: McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald’s141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: Milk Chocolate140: Mac or PC: PC139: Flip flops or high heels: High Heels138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke136: Hillary or Obama: Obama135: Burried or cremated: Buried, I’m taking part in the skeleton war134: Singing or Dancing: Singing133: Coach or Chanel: Coach132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Who (???)131: Small town or Big city: big city130: Wal-Mart or Target: I’m Irish129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben Stiller128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure127: East Coast or West Coast:I’m Irish126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas125: Chocolate or Flowers: Cocolate124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney (tf is six flags??)123: Yankees or Red Sox: I’m Irish[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: My brothers are all in the army, this is v Yikes121: George Bush: Did 9/11120: Gay Marriage: Let us marry!!119: The presidential election: Stupid118: Abortion: Let them have it, it’s not my decision117: MySpace: Oldie but goodie116: Reality TV: Stupid, but entertaining115: Parents: Love my step dad, I’m a daddy’s girl lmao114: Back stabbers: [eye emojis]113: Ebay: Don’t use it much112: Facebook: Good, I guess111: Work: I’m a lazy binch110: My Neighbors: Nosy!! They look in our windows when we’re out109: Gas Prices: I don’t drive108: Designer Clothes: Look fancy107: College: I plan on going to one106: Sports: Quidditch I love, not so sure on everything else105: My family: OK, a little nasty sometimes, v petty, esp my brothers104: The future: The what???[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: Like this morning?102: Last time you ate: I’m eating an apple rn101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: Last week I saw my aunt100: Cried in front of someone: Last Thursday 99: Went to a movie theater: Lke a week ago98: Took a vacation: way too long ago97: Swam in a pool: Years96: Changed a diaper: Not long enough ago95: Got my nails done: Ages ago94: Went to a wedding: Last year93: Broke a bone: 5 years ago (my school shaded me, another story for another time)92: Got a peircing: 3 years ago91: Broke the law: I downloaded music illegally yesterday90: Texted: yesterday[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: My friend Molly88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: My Coffee machine87: The last movie I saw: Gaurdians Of The Galaxy Vol. 2 (I was forced)86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: The end of my exams85: The thing im not looking forward to: My exams84: People call me: Abbey, Abbs, Dabbey Hufflepuff (100% real)83: The most difficult thing to do is: Study82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: I don’t drive81: My zodiac sign is: Leo80: The first person i talked to today was: My mum79: First time you had a crush: I was like 8, he was my brothers best friend, he gave me a valentines card and I told him to go away bc I couldn’t handle it78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: My mum77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Idk??76: Right now I am talking to: The GC75: What are you going to do when you grow up: something stupid, probably74: I have/will get a job: IDK??73: Tomorrow: School72: Today: Study71: Next Summer: Exams, then England for a while70: Next Weekend: Dying slowly, from a hangover69: I have these pets: None68: The worst sound in the world: ‘moist’67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Myself binch66: People that make you happy:my mutuals (yes even u you shitstain)65: Last time I cried: last Thursday64: My friends are: a little mean, v condescending63: My computer is: HP62: My School: Is becoming a gaelscoil and I can’t deal lmao61: My Car: I don’t have one60: I lose all respect for people who: Shout at me/fake ask ppl out59: The movie I cried at was: Lion King, Marley and Me58: Your hair color is: Brown with some blonde57: TV shows you watch: Shadowhunters, Avatar, Legend of Korra + many more56: Favorite web site: This blue hell, or youtube55: Your dream vacation: America54: The worst pain I was ever in was: When I broke my arm, that shit hurt53: How do you like your steak cooked: Well Done52: My room is: Messy, kind of51: My favorite celebrity is: I can’t choose don’t do me dirt like this50: Where would you like to be: America!49: Do you want children: IDK48: Ever been in love: Hah nooooo47: Who’s your best friend: Emma46: More guy friends or girl friends: Girl friends45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Sleeping44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My niece, Ella43: Do you have a 5 year plan: No, I don’t even know what I’m doing in 5 mins42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No41: Have you pre-named your children: No40: Last person I got mad at: Myself, my friend Mia 39: I would like to move to: America38: I wish I was a professional: Sleeper[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: Chocolate36: Vehicle: IDK35: President: Mary, she was good34: State visited: i’M iRISH33: Cellphone provider: 332: Athlete: N O31: Actor: NO30: Actress:also no29: Singer: again no28: Band: I HAVE NO TALENTS OKAY27: Clothing store: Penneys26: Grocery store: Tesco25: TV show: Shadowhunters24: Movie: I don’t have a fave, don’t do me dirt23: Website: This blue hell, or youtube22: Animal: A Sugar Glider21: Theme park: ???20: Holiday: I’d like to go to America19: Sport to watch: Quidditch18: Sport to play: none lol17: Magazine: none16: Book: Harry Potter15: Day of the week: Saturday14: Beach: Loch Luch13: Concert attended: none12: Thing to cook: Pasta Bake11: Food: Curry10: Restaurant: Blue Ocean9: Radio station: Today FM8: Yankee candle scent: Lavender7: Perfume: Princess- Vera Wang6: Flower: Violet5: Color: Purple4: Talk show host:Ryan Tubridy3: Comedian: Darragh O’Brien2: Dog breed: A Newfie!! We used to breed Newfoundlands!!1: Did you answer all these truthfully?  Yes (kind of)